So it has been 36 years in coming and now it has arrived. I lost my nerve. No one who knows me will actually believe it happened. I can scarcely believe it myself. Now I have the task of figuring out how to get it back. So far as I have researched a little about anxiety and PTSD and any other self-diagnosis I can come up with it appears that there is a lot of help out there. I suppose I should actually wait and talk to a doctor and a therapist before taking to many steps in this process but like most things in my life I can't wait I need it to happen now. Patience is something that seems necessary to this process. This is going to be hard.
Now I am on a quest to get my nerve back.
Let me know if you have seen it.
